Unscripted Feelings

Rain to me

There’s something about rain that has always felt deeply personal to me.

Over the years, through many of my writings, I’ve made it quite clear that nature is one of the greatest loves of my life. And among all its wonders, rain remains the most beautiful melody ever composed.

I remember when I was younger, I used to tell everyone that whenever it rained, it was God’s way of making me feel better — whether I was happy, hurting, lost, or simply overwhelmed. Rain always felt like a quiet message from above:
Let it loose. Let it fall. Allow yourself to be cleansed. Tomorrow, begin again.

Maybe that’s why I’ve always found comfort in the sound of rain — the soft tapping on rooftops, the rhythm against window sills, the scent it leaves behind in gardens and empty streets. Every drizzle, every storm, every heavy pour feels symbolic of life itself.

Some days, life arrives like a light drizzle — gentle enough for us to walk through without much thought.
Some moments pour harder, forcing us to pause and seek shelter.
And then there are storms so loud and relentless that all we can do is wait… breathe… and hope for calm again.

Yet somehow, no matter the intensity, we move forward. At our own pace. In our own way.

There is something incredibly healing about sitting by the window or standing on the porch while rain falls endlessly outside. And on the days when the weight inside feels unbearably heavy, getting drenched in the rain almost feels therapeutic — as if the sky itself understands what words cannot explain.

I’ve always loved that feeling of being washed clean by it.

As I write this now, I’m looking outside my window, watching a soft drizzle settle over the world once again. And I suppose rain reminds me of something else too:

Maybe there’s never truly bad weather —
only different ways of seeing it.

And perhaps healing, much like rain, arrives quietly… one drop at a time.

Unscripted Feelings

Becoming Water

There are days when you realize you are water.

Not stone. Not fire. Not wind.

But water.

Flowing quietly through cracks no one noticed, finding passage where there seemed to be none. Making your way from home to city to countries, across worlds. Sometimes in gutters, sometimes in crystal glasses, sometimes pooled in muddy lands, sometimes resting against serene mountains.

Water does not resist its journey. It absorbs its surroundings, the environment, the treatment, the processing, and still moves toward its end. Serving purpose one step, one drop at a time.

Today, I feel like water.

Looking back, I see the shapes I’ve taken, the containers I’ve been poured into, the rocks I’ve curved around, the dams that held me still longer than I wished.

There were phases. Moments of sinking deep into silence. Moments of rising high, almost weightless. Times of crashing down, and times of stillness. The kind that looks calm on the surface while entire currents move underneath.

And then the heavy waves, the ones that drown you briefly only to teach you how to surface again.

No wonder water brings me calm.

Standing before a lake or sea feels like recognition, an unspoken familiarity. It is as if I am seeing myself reflected, the depth, the quiet chaos, the endless motion disguised as peace.

Still water holds a profound secret. Beneath its surface lies movement. Beneath the chaos of life lies calm. Beneath my own turbulence, there is something steady.

Rivers rushing with pressure, that relentless, roaring flow, feel like my emotions when they can no longer be contained. A release I cannot always put into words. A force that does not ask permission to move.

I am surprised I could not articulate this before. But perhaps this is what calm does. It gives language to what was once only sensation. It lets you sit long enough with yourself to recognize your own element.

When you truly begin to know who you are and what matters, you stop fighting your nature.

So yes, I think I am water.

Sometimes ferocious.

Sometimes still.

Mostly flowing, shaped by the landscapes I pass through, yet always, quietly, unmistakably myself.

Kennet River, Reading
Tell a tale !

A Quiet Detour to Milfontes

Sometimes (okay, most times) I don’t know how I feel or what I want. And in those moments, I do things like booking Milfontes—the small place tucked between Lagos and Lisbon. It just felt nice to go. So I went.

I was carrying Eleanor Oliphant Is Completely Fine. Yes, the title resonated—deeply—and it felt good to return to reading while traveling through Portugal. I finished most of it on the bus to Milfontes. I reached in the evening, and of course, the sad part: the sunset was unfolding on the left side of the bus while I was seated on the right. My heart ached, naturally—it always does when I miss things like that. Still, once I got off, the sky put on enough drama to make up for it. (Check the pic.)

The Airbnb itself was quaint, and I met another traveler who looked visibly relieved at my arrival—she’d been staying there alone with her dog for four days. Company is always nice :) She cooked dinner and kindly offered me some. After food and easy conversation, I took a long shower and hugged the bed like it had been waiting for me.

The next morning, I decided to walk the Fisherman’s Trail. I started around 9, assuming I’d find a café somewhere along the way. Surprise—there was nothing. So there I was, walking for the next six hours on an empty stomach. The only savior was a daily milk bar I’d bought the day before in Lagos. The walk—from town through farms and out onto the cliffs—was stunning. Hardly anyone around, except for a generous number of cats keeping watch.

After a while, I saw a few people here and there, moving in both directions along the trail—not crowded, just enough to remind me the world still existed. It felt surreal. I could see myself, hear myself—my thoughts moving alongside the ocean, the sun, and the vast stretch of sand. Luxury, isn’t it?

Around 2 p.m., I decided to head back and somehow chose the most odd route possible. I crossed arid sand dunes, wandered into fields of nothingness, no one in sight in any direction—just me, singing to myself, enjoying every little thing along the way. Yes, including the trees. I felt like I was home. Like this was exactly where I was meant to be.

At some point, I struggled to find my way back—everything looked the same, all grass alike, all trees indistinguishable. Eventually, instinct kicked in, and somehow I crossed over near someone’s house (private property)… and that’s that.

I made it through a crooked road and finally back into town, to the BnB. It had been a perfect day—full of nature, myself, and a deep sense of serenity. Just before reaching the BnB, I spotted a café. I was relieved, and I’m fairly sure the server was too. I must have looked as exhausted as I felt. A great coffee, toast, and eggs later, it was time to retreat to bed.

And honestly, I couldn’t have asked for more.

Milfontes, Portugal
Fisherman Trail, Milfontes
Unscripted Feelings

My Love story with Sun ☀️

There is something about a sunrise that feels like a quiet resurrection inside me. Every time the sun peeks over the horizon, I feel as though a part of me that had gone silent—tired, forgotten, maybe even bruised—slowly opens its eyes again. It’s not loud or dramatic. It’s gentle. Reassuring. Almost like the universe leaning in and whispering, “You made it. I’m here.”

With every sunrise, it feels like my waiting ends. Waiting for hope. Waiting for warmth. Waiting for something—or someone—to show up and stay. The sun does that without asking questions, without conditions. It arrives faithfully, as if it promised me long ago that it would never abandon me, no matter how heavy the night before was.

And then there is the sunset—my most peaceful goodbye. I let the sun sink into the void without fear, without resistance, because I trust it. I trust that this parting is not an ending. It’s a pause. A promise wrapped in fading gold and bruised purples. The sky puts on a final show, pouring every emotion it can hold—longing, gratitude, nostalgia, peace—before surrendering to darkness. And somehow, my heart learns to let go a little better every time.

The drama in the sky, the chaos of colors colliding and melting into one another, feels so achingly human. Just like life. Just like love. Feelings rise, clash, overwhelm, fade—but one truth remains constant: the sun will return. That certainty shapes the way I see everything, especially human connections. For me, love, friendship, family—everything important—comes down to one simple benchmark: show up. Be consistent. Be present. Be calming. Even if you must leave, promise me you’ll come back.

The sun taught me that.

I know it might sound foolish, but I believe I share a love story with the sun. A peaceful, unspoken bond with the clouds. A heart-string-tugging attachment with the rain. No human presence has ever soothed me the way these do. They ask nothing of me, yet give me everything—comfort, clarity, grounding. Maybe life is better when humans and nature exist together in these moments, but without this… I feel incomplete.

These moments—sunrises, sunsets, quiet skies, soft rain—may seem ordinary to the world. Mundane, even. But to me, they are sacred. They are intimate. They are deeply, achingly personal. And that’s why I feel protective of them. Not everyone deserves to stand beside me during these times. Not everyone knows how to be gentle with something so tender.

And yes, I am emotional. With everything. Always.

But maybe that’s because I still know how to feel wonder when the sun rises—and how to trust when it sets.

PS : If anyone really ever wanted to see my best side, it be during the golden hour overlooking a rise or a set ❤️

Jurmala, Latvia
Unscripted Feelings

Sunday’s – Snuggle

Been a while that I woke up to a Sunday that felt comforting. On travel Sundays, it’s more about getting up, or laying down, checkin or checkout and being in motion in some form.

This Sunday I spent the morning researching what, how, who and when you could snuggle a friend. Yeah, you read that right. And it’s not desperation. Its about knowing the right meaning of the word and also ensuring that its not misleading or mistaken for something more than it is.

Recently I also learnt that phrases like “I miss you” or “I love you” be default have romantic notations. I was like 🤦‍♀️ Because for me someone who is really very emotional and giving, I tread of feelings and wear my heart on sleeve. So I say it as I feel it (though usually non romantically) Its been quite a ride since then creating those boundaries within me (frankly its quite hard, changing how I reflect my emotions externally) So I am currently on the super conscious caution based expression of my praise, liking and appreciation of the other person.

So this morning, I woke up with a yearning for a snuggle, that landed into how to make yourself feel affectionate, comforted, safe through self hugs, use of quilts and patting oneself. Do I hate it, absolutely ( I miss the freedom of being me) But my definition of friendships and bffs have been challenged and what I should & shouldn’t expect or what can mean otherwise. So here we are.

Hoping for days where snuggling becomes a norm ❤️

Skerries, Ireland.